Give sorrow words: the grief that does not speak
Whispers the o'er-fraught heart and bids it break.
(Macbeth)

Sunday, July 8, 2012

A letter to your cardiologist


         Today would have been Phillip’s 28th birthday.  Although he is not far from my thoughts every minute of every day, that is even more the case today.

         Although Phillip eventually lost his battle with Friedreich’s Ataxia I am convinced that he lived longer than he would have had he not received such excellent medical care, and I place you at the top of the list.  Even though it was his heart that eventually gave out, it gave him a few more years than he would have had otherwise, because you took such good care of it.

         In case you ever wonder what someone who is going to die anyway does with those extra years you give them, here is a very short list of some of the things Phillip did in his last 2 or 3 years:

-       He brought in the New Year at Times Square with a friend.
-       He skied at Alpine Meadows every year, and had skied just 4 weeks before his death.
-       He rafted down the Colorado River less than a year before he died.
-       He jumped out of an airplane at least once in his last year, and was planning another trip when he died.
-       He celebrated his last birthday with a big party at O’Flaherty’s Irish pub in San Jose.
-       He was planning another fundraiser.
-       He went to the annual conference of the National Ataxia Foundation every year, including the year before he died.
-       He was planning to be towed in his wheelchair in Ride Ataxia, an annual fundraiser for the Friedreich’s Ataxia Research Alliance.
-       And he was writing his book, which he almost finished, and which his editor and I are polishing up and will publish.

         So never doubt whether it really matters whether someone who’s life you weren’t able to save, benefited from the time you added.  As Phillip had tattooed on his arm (in Elvish) “All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to you”, and you gave him a bit more to decide what to do with.  Thank you.